
I was in New Orleans with Tara and Jennifer. The three of us were walking along a narrow street headed toward a building whose entry way I knew was in an alley. When we got there, Tara and I were still together, but Jennifer was gone. Tara and I walked into the alley-way entrance and into a huge room with marble floors and tall white columns. We stood on a balcony overlooking the main floor and saw Jennifer below us walking quickly toward a hallway. She was following a tall, dark-skinned man in a gray suit. She was wearing a frilly black and white pinafore over a flouncy skirt with little red ankle socks and shiny black flats. She looked like a little girl.
Tara and I caught up with her in the hallway and followed. At the end of the hallway, Jennifer climbed up on a bed with a man and began to take her clothes off. Tara split into two people. One Tara went through a doorway into a dark room where a man lay wrapped up in rumpled covers on a bed. The other Tara stood next to me in the doorway. I couldn't decide what to watch, so I kept leaning back and forth, looking into the hallway at Jennifer, then looking back into the bedroom at one of the Taras. I was fascinated and scared.
Later I was at an outdoor swimming pool where a swim meet was taking place. I stood behind a tall man with my arms wrapped around his waist and leaned my forehead against his back. He was my boyfriend and my brother. He had long blond hair with brightly-colored feathers woven into the strands.
It was my turn to swim, and I wasn't prepared. I stood at the edge of the pool and waited for the starting gun. I was in the center lane, and the only other swimmer was a little girl in the far right lane. I was embarrassed to be competing against a child. We dove in and started racing. On the return lap, I rose out of my body to look across the lanes to see if I was winning. The little girl was keeping up with me easily even though I was swimming as hard as I could. I went back into my body and tried harder, but I knew it was no good.
I got out of the pool and looked for my boyfriend. I saw that he was looking up at a Native American woman standing on a balcony overlooking the pool. She was his new girlfriend, and he was in love. He told me they were going to get married, and that I should buy her a wedding gift. I thought flowers would be nice and asked what kind she liked. He began to reel off a list of Latin botanical names, and I told him he was crazy if he expected me to hunt them down. I told him I'd just go to the grocery store and get a bouquet of tulips wrapped in cellophane.




