Health Insurance

Nite of 7/20

Brad and I had sex three times in a row. The third time his semen landed on the ceiling and he told me not to look.

It was someone's birthday and I was with a group of friends celebrating. It was an extravagant ritual that took the whole day. We sat in a big circle sharing presents. Then we took the birthday boy out for a meal. In the late afternoon, I went to an old man's house. I took his arm, and we swept down his lawn and around the corner as though we were flying with our feet just above the ground. The old man was blind sometimes. He and I went to the birthday boy's house to pick him up for another meal. He looked put-out that he was going to have to go out again, but he came down the stairs and we went.

Later that day, the old man and I went to Target. A young black woman with long hair wearing a lot of makeup and multi-colored eyeshadow came up to me and told me how wonderful it was to work there. She said she used to work for a Congresswoman who made her volunteer taking tickets at football games, and that she was much happier at Target. I asked her if she had helath insurace, including vision and dental, and she got angry and walked away, saying, "Why don't you apply for a job here and find out?" The old man and I decided that she didn't have health insurance and that she would get fired if she told anyone.

There was a large canal filled with a school of scary, ragged, black and white fish. The fish had invaded the canal and everyone was worried about them. I was handed a roll of cash by a young man who told me not to worry about the fish because it was only a practical joke and the fish were really robots. The cash he gave me was hush money.

The old man took me back to his house and showed me his baby tiger, who was the size of a large house cat with a long crinkly tail. He told me that the cat was aggressive and would try to bite me unless I slapped him on his nose, so I did.

I painted walls and furniture with beautiful reds, oranges, and blues.

Getting Dressed

Nite of 7/16

I was wearing a thick, heavy, long, red-checked gingham dress. I thought it looked nice with my hiking boots. I decided it wasn't sexy enough for Halloween, so I went to a store in Newport, Oregon and walked out with a whole rack of lingerie. Then I was sleeping in a bed with Adrienne and Doug. I woke up with Doug looming over me and I was stroking his stomach. I stopped really quickly as soon as I realized what I was doing.

susan-susan

Nite of 7/14

I had an assignment to design and plant a garden with a partner. I told her my plan, which she didn't like. I wanted to make it a spiral with a wide path for easy weeding. The vegetables would be planted along the sides of the path. In the center would be a patch of grass with a cherry tree. I wanted to name the garden susan-susan.

Then I went under the ocean and came upon a group of people from another country sitting on the ocean floor playing a kind of board game. There was a large square made up of smaller squares whose borders were rocks. In the very center was a small stone. The object was to pick up the small stone and put it back in its place without disturbing the lines of rocks making up the squares. Since I was the newest player, I didn't get a turn right away, and my job was to pick up the stone with a long stick when someone dropped it, and then put it back in its place. I couldn't wait until it was my turn because I knew it would be easy to swim over the board and pick up the stone without touching anything else.

Thesis

It was Friday, I hadn't finished my thesis yet, and my deadline was Monday. I threw something together and showed up to give my presentation. When it was over, I left and didn't come back. Sometime later in the afternoon, I realized that I was supposed to have stayed for an evaluation. I saw Susan Shaw a few days later and told her that I had gone to a meadow after the presentation and developed a sudden migraine and that is why I didn't come back. She told me I passed anyway.

Then I lived with Mormons in a two story house and we were being shot at from the front yard. I stayed upstairs most of the time but snuck out to go to cafe every once in a while, too.

New Shoes

Nite of 7/12

Maressa came to visit me as I was joining a college marching band. We were in formation on the field and she slipped into a line in the back with her french horn. We started the routine we were practicing. My line moved forward into a line of two people, and then one of four, and then we pointed our toes to the sides and made a ballet pod with our arms in the air.

Before this I had been shopping at for shoes. I saw a pair of brown and tan loafers that I wanted, but they were only available in sizes 6 and 10. I wandered throught the store looking at the same tables over and over, hoping to find a size 8.

Then Brad and I were at a dance with a lot of middle-school-aged kids. There was a huge wooden merry-go-round from the 1800s that has been installed along the edge of a cliff. We rode it even though I was afraid it was going to break and slide down the cliff.

No Drinking Allowed

Nite of 7/11

Mareesa and Iyla came to visit me and I picked them up at the Chicago airport. We got a cab and went downtown, but I lost them somewhere on the way. So I went to a party on the state capitol building lawn. There was many people there, and they were all drinking and doing drugs. A police man came toward me with his gun out. I stopped in my tracks and raised my hands over my head. I wasn't scared, but I knew I should pretend I was so that he would leave me alone. He asked me if I had been drinking and I disbelievingly said, "Here? One the state capitol LAWN??" as if that were unthinkable. He left me alone and I laughed to myself for not answering his question and for getting away with drinking.

Flying Mormons

Nite of 7/9

I was a tall and beautiful Mormon woman with long dark hair. I could fly and so could the other Mormon women I knew. We were in a two-story house at a resort in the country when people with guns started trying to kill us from the front yard. We stayed in the bedroom upstairs looking out the window at them. I had ordered blue knobs for the kitchen cabinets, and apparently this was against the law, because a young man reported me to the FBI, and my family was now under investigation.

That night we gathered in a large fire-lit circle in the backyard. Another woman and I took turns flying into the air and doing beautiful tricks to entertain and boost the moral of our family. I felt so happy and serene. I told my 13 year-old daughter that she could fly, too, but she didn't believe me. I wrote on her arm in black pen that she could fly. I told her it was all inside her body and she just had to believe it to make it happen. She just shook her head and smiled at me.

Serpent

Nite of 7/8

I was standing on an icy ledge beneath a high rocky cliff along the edge of a freezing blue-green sea. Diane was there and she had a long white beard. I knew something was not quite right about that, but I wasn't sure what it was. I finally decided that it wasn't currently fashionable for women to have beards, and Brad confirmed that this was so. A huge sea serpent whose eyeball was as big as my head swam up to the ledge and sniffed my feet.

Then I was in school. I was reading the first page of the newest Harry Potter book and Diane was mentioned. She had won some contest in which the reward was to be a character in the last book. Then I saw Art Boucot as a young man. He told me that he had done field work on the serpent early in his career.

Mickey Mouse, Undercover

Nite of 7/7

I was Mickey Mouse at Disneyland. There was a little boy who liked to pretend he was a spy. Even though we didn't speak to each other, I knew what to do. Disneyland turned into a grocery store, and the boy darted up an aisle. I took the the long way around to meet him in the front. I sprinted past a display of silver watches and grabbed one off the wall. Just as I came around the corner to the front of the store, the boy came out of an aisle in the center. I slid the watch along the floor to him, and he grabbed it. Before he ran away, I winked and gave him a thumbs up.

I'll Have a Grilled Cheese

Nite of 7/6

I was helping to arrest a serial killer, and it wasnt going well. We were trying to make him go through a door so that we could lock it behind him, but he wouldn't cooperate. He smiled at me a lot, and I didn't want to get too close to him for fear that he would grab me.

Then I was in a restaurant that only served grilled cheese sandwiches. It was a large and complicated operation. I picked two slices of bread and put them on a conveyer belt, then went to the end of the belt with my tray. The bread arrived and I went into another line where many workers were slicing cheese. My name was called, and I went to a counter where there was a woman with a huge wheel of butter. She tried to spread the entire wheel on my bread.

Then I was in college and I found out that I couldn't graduate because I hadn't taken Latin IV. So I enrolled in college in Finland because I thought the time difference would be like going back in time and then I could still graduate.

Hotel

Nite of 7/5.

I was sick at night so I went to a hotel in a city to get a private room. The next morning Brad came and gave me mushroom medicine for my ear ache. I told him I couldn't remember how I had gotten to the hotel. There was a group of lesbians in the hotel administering comptability tests. I was compatible with a short blond lesbian, and everyone thought it was funny.

I am a Captain

Nite of 7/3

I ate many large chocolate shoes.

I had been appointed captain of an elite guard of four women soldier/spies. We were placed on an assignment by a river/swimming pool. There were two teams of four riding large red rafts down the river. One team finished and got out while the other team lost control of their raft and ran aground on a runaway truck ramp. We laughed really hard at the runaway raft.

I went back to the house where I had been appointed captain and there were two Indian men there who didn't believe I was a captain because I was a woman. Chris Baldridge came into the house and we went through a tiny door together into a tea house.

I went to the peace circle at the Rainbow Gathering and everyone was very happy that I was participating. I told them all I'd be right back and went away somewhere. When I came back, I joined hands with with the last person in a zig-zag line. The first person in line at the top of the hill rolled a white ball down the hill and it reached me just as I stepped into line. I reached down to pick it up and then the celebration started.

Goodbye

Nite of 7/1.

Dan kept hugging me and wanted me to go back to his house with him. I said that it was too late because I was going to Brad, but it felt really great and I was sorely tempted.