Kitchens

I had a job working in the snow with a group of people. I loved it so much because it was exciting. I was standing in the kitchen with one of the people I worked with when he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. I didn’t like it and told him not to do it again, but he did anyway and told me I’d just have to live with him doing that whenever he wanted because what I wanted didn’t matter. I was really upset because I had to report him for harassment and I was scared I’d lose my job. I thought about not reporting it so as not to cause any tension, but that made me even more miserable because then I wouldn’t be doing the right thing. I was so mad.

We all went to a house in the country to meet a family. It was a mom, dad, a girl, and a boy, and they were all mentally retarded. I broke one of the glasses in their kitchen and we all did a dance.

Canal House

I was in a wonderful small town in New England in summer. It was the kind of climate where you need a jacket even on hot days--delicate weather. Mom and Dad lived in a huge red house. It was very old and surrounded by evergreens and out-of-control shrubs. I loved it. It was like the house in Burnt by the Sun. The town gave me a feeling like On Golden Pond. I had nothing but leisure time, and I liked to be in the house or on its porch. There was a water festival going on along a parking lot/canal a few blocks away. It was shallow enough to wade in, but also deep enough to drive a boat through. I spent a lot of time in that area trying to walk all the way around the curving canal. I went back to the house and Brad was there! We decided to go back to the water. We took off our clothes and walked down the road. I decided I wanted my goggles so I ran back to the house waving at Brad over my shoulder as he stood in the road waiting and smiling.

Forest Service Toilet

I was with Diane in the country. She was driving a truck and I was in the back. I had to go to the bathroom, so we stopped at a Forest Service site. I went into a shack and brought out a big square plastic toilet, which I put in the back of the truck. I sat on it and started peeing, but Diane was driving around corners too fast and I kept slipping sideways. It smelled really bad and I wanted her to stop so I could hold it steady. Brown liquid poop slopped out on my hands.

Valentine's Day

I was sitting at a table somewhere in the library, and a woman came up to me and gave me twelve miniature red roses wrapped up in a white envelope. They were from Brad.

It was Valentine's Day, and I was sitting in the back row of an auditorium watching a play. I looked down the row and saw Brad sitting across the aisle. He saw me but didn't come over because he was with his friends and was embarrassed. The he did come over, and we all got up and went outside. I met up with his friends at Squirrel's, but Brad wasn't with them. They said they had been on the river and had been drinking, and Brad insisted that he wanted to paddle his skim board around. They told him it was too dangerous, but he wouldn't listen. I walked to the river and it was full of motor boats. It was very choppy and wide. I asked if he was at least wearing a life jacket, and they said he wasn't, and his skim board wasn't motorized, so he was just using a paddle. We were all exasperated with him.

We went back to Squirrel's which was three stories tall. It was night, and there were two full moons in the sky. Then I saw the sun and it was suddenly light, and I was astonished because it was still night. We went into the first level of the bar and looked for seating. It was very full because everyone was celebrating Valentine's Day. We went to the second level, which was a private residence of an Indian family, and one of the women in the group went into their living room. They were sitting on the floor around a coffee table eating dinner. She sat down with them, and I started laughing. She realized that she wasn't in a restaurant and left, and we all stood outside and laughed together.

Demon Baby

I gave birth to a baby boy sitting on a chair facing the couch in the living room. Katy was sitting on the couch watching. My labor was very short. I gave one big push and he fell out on the floor. He was very long and skinny. I picked him up and started nursing. He sucked for a moment and then stopped and laid there in my arms all floppy. I switched him to the other breast, and as he was nursing, my mouth filled up with spit. I opened my mouth to let the spit out becase I was starting to choke on it, and it was milk.

I tried to ride a bike to work, but turned around halfway there because I had to go back and get the baby. I chased a teenaged boy up the street and into his yard.

I decided to drive to work to tell them I couldn't be there because of the new baby. As I was standing by the car, I remembered to feel my stomach because I have always wondered what the skin feels like right after giving birth. It was rough and squashy. I got in the car but couldn't back out or drive straight, I just kept bumping into the curb. Finally I gave up and went inside and decided to call instead.

Then I was sitting on the couch, nursing a kitten. It wouldn't nurse very well, so I called the doctor. I told her my baby wasn't nursing and she said it was because I smelled bad to it and that I should come in and get some herbal ointment to rub all over myself. I was repeating her instructions out loud in disbelief to her, but she wouldn't say anything. Then I realized that I was trying to nurse the kitten, and my baby was somewhere else.

I found him and we went to the upstairs bathroom, which was the bathroom of the Ft Collins house. I was watching in the mirror as I nursed him, and he was growing older before my eyes. I lifted his lip and saw that he had two teeth in the middle, and then I pulled his lip back farther and saw that he had row after row of pointed, overlapping teeth, going all the way up the side of his skull. In that moment, he also had blond hair. I was so upset that my first baby was deformed and a boy. I felt like a failure, and I felt sorry for Brad, whose baby it was. Then the baby grabbed my ass and said something rude to me. I ran down the stairs to tell Katy that it was a demon baby, but I couldn't find her. Then the baby escaped.

Suddenly I was in the backseat of a big gold car from the 1950s. Doug was driving and Katy was in the front seat. Really loud heavy metal was playing, and I screamed at Doug to turn it off because they couldn't hear me telling them about the demon baby that we were looking for. He asked me how many grunts it took to have the baby, and I told him just one. We drove into a movie theater parking lot, and I knew that the baby had gone in to see a movie called Bump, which was a sports comedy with puppet creatures. We drove around looking for him, but didn't get out of the car. Then we were watching the same movie in the car as a way to tempt the baby out to us because it was his favorite movie. Suddenly he emerged from a pile of stuffed animals in the back of the car and I grabbed him. We drove to the police station and walked in through the double glass front doors to turn him in.

Graveyard Man

I was at a house in the country where a man lived alone. His house sat in the middle of a wide clearing in his orchard in a slight depression. I was there because a newspaper had sent me to investigate. They had received a complaint that he was using cold sewer gas pipes in his orchard. These were white pipes sticking out of the ground about a foot all over the orchard. As I walked around, I always made sure not to get too close to the house in case he was there, but I didn't want to get too close to the trees where the pipes were either. Then I saw him with a shovel in the distance underneath the trees on a rise. He was digging very shallowly, and I saw a hand and an arm in his shovel. He had killed 300 people and buried them throughout his orchard, then stuck the pipes in the ground to vent the gas from their bodies. Everyday he went out to dig up a little rotted flesh to eat.

Breakfast

Maressa and I were in a diner sitting at the counter. We both ordered omelets. When hers came, I saw that she had ordered the haggis omelet. She looked at it and didn't want to eat it. I was fustrated with her for not reading the menu, and I called the waitress over to take her omelet away.

Desert installation

I was in the desert with Mom and a large group of people. We were trekking north when I noticed the sand shifting strangely under my feet. I got down on my hands and knees and started digging to see what was there. Shortly I uncovered a hole. I looked down into an underground cavern lit with highbeam lights hanging from the ceiling, and a railroad track running from east to west. I got up and ran ahead to the group of people I was with and told Mom to go back to look at the cavern. The place in the sand where I had dug was marked with a sand castle.

Mom went back and looked and suddenly she and I were in a car driving around in a military installation. I knew it was where the train tracks in the cavern led to. She was driving and I was terrified because I knew it was a secret place and we were going to get caught. We stopped at a stop sign and a Black officer got into the backseat. Trying to appear as if we were supposed to be there, I said, "Where to, Officer?" He wasn't fooled and loomed over the seat at me. He wasn't hurting me but was trying to intimidate me by getting into my space and pulling my seat back so that I had to look at him from below and upside down.